I don't know

Last evening, I had loads of free time for myself, I decided to get back to writing something, couldn't figure out what. My blog space has looked the same for too long a time I guess. So, unable to come up with something interesting to write about, I asked a friend to suggest me a topic. The answer I got was "I don't know". (smiles)
This is not a nice answer you were really waiting to hear. It makes you think that you are unimportant or you are not really cared about.

But looking back again, it is so often that we use these phrase that I think it is rather a reflex action than a truthful answer. It is so easy to get away with saying this one and may be a couple more like-ones, in almost any possible situation. I wonder, what does one really mean when you say such automated set of dialogues.

It is not just in this case. Every time my mom calls up in the afternoon, I almost know the exact sequence of questions she asks or rather what I need to answer to prevent the conversation from prolonging. For example,

Hi Ma.
Yeah just got out of class. Yeps, I am walking back to hostel now. Nothing much, just stupid lectures, nothing interesting.
I will eat yeah, in a while. I have to get back to hostel first.
Yo, roti-sabji. Useless food. Curds there. Don't feel like eating.
Haan, I have lab in the afty, have to prepare for it.
Ok then ma, I reached hostel. I will go eat now.
Taata!

This is a fairly accurate description of a typical conversation unless something totally strange happens with the world like Sivaji being dubbed into French or a sparrow poops on George Bush or Indian scientist claims to have found a stairway to heaven. Of course, this is just my side of the conversation. I have omitted the half a million yeah s, yep s, haan s, I see s and ok s I am made to say to convince my mom that I am still on the line. Meanwhile I learn about a whole lot of new things that happen in and around me like DeveGowda sleeps in the assembly yet again, Bangalore pollution on the rise, Mumbai hit by crime, Innocent school kid shot by schoolmate in US and God only knows how many more.

See, the point of all this is .... "I don't know".
Why can't I make a better conversation? I don't know.
Why I am blogging this? I don't know.

In conclusion all I can safely say is, there are innumerable things that intrigue me. I know very few of them. Even fewer, I even bother about. So its all fair in saying, I don't know. For truly, I don't know.

Sometimes

When you have once seen the glow of happiness on the face of a beloved person, you know that a man can have no vocation but to awaken that light on the faces surrounding him.

Happiness, we rarely feel it.
I would buy it, beg it, steal it,
Pay in coins of dripping blood
For this one transcendent good.

Dilemma....?

Maiden or Chaos

Why? Why?
No choices for me.
Choices are not a fair game.

Time TechFest

Yaay! Techfest is here. Asia's biggest annual Technical feature at IIT Bombay kick-started here yesterday. Bit of wires, broken down pieces of wood and metal are a common sight everywhere on campus. It is very polluting.(Thanks to ES)

But yeah, that is besides the point. I somehow am not able to feel the same energy through me. It is a feeling of missing something. Or am I just lost? It is not even that maybe. It may just be the fact that I have become old and as all things do or atleast seem for old people, been there, done that, so boo.

Still, come to think of it rationally, that is also not the reason. It is not just me. It couldn't have been that something for which I could shed my flesh and blood just a couple of years back, been reduced to yet another weekend. It is very obvious that there has been a huge drop in the amount of participation this year. Though the official figures and the organizers may beg to differ, the insti is not filled at all despite the innumerable innovations and the new strategies implemented this year. Or it is just that there are not too many hoardings on campus. the only ones to be noticed are "Microsoft is delighted sometimes, excited some other times to sponsor TechFest."

Well, it may not be all these reasons at all. It is probably that this year MoodI happened for me. This was very certainly my first MoodI inspite of the fact that I have been on campus all these years during the December time. Definitely, MoodI happened. A lot can happen over MoodI.

It is MI this year for me and not TF.

Life goes round and round. It comes around.

Bhoot! Bhoot! Bhoot! Bhoot! Bhoot! ....

Shame and Scandal...umm?

I say oh, misery
Shame and scandal in the family
Woe, misery
Shame and scandal in the family

Down in Trinidad there was a family
With much confusion as you will see
A mama and a papa and a boy who was grown
He wanted to marry and have a wife of his own
He found a girl she suited him nice
He went to his father to ask his advice
His father said: "Son, I have to say no,
The girl is your sister, but your mama don't know"

Oh, misery
Shame and scandal in the family
I say oh, misery
Shame and scandal in the family

Then a week went by and the summer came down
Soon the best girl on the island he found
He went to his papa to make it a date
His papa shook his head and to this he did say
"You Can't marry that girl I have to say no
Cause the girl is your sister, but your mama don't know"

Oh, misery
Shame and scandal in the family
I say Oh, misery
It’s shame and scandal in the family

He went to his mama, he covered his head
He told his mum what his father had said
His mother she laughed,
she said: "Go man, go
Your daddy ain't your daddy, but your daddy don't know"

Oh, misery
It’s shame and scandal in the family
Oh, misery
Shame and scandal in the family
I say oh, misery
Shame and scandal in the family
I say oh, misery

Simple arithmetic

Small things makes your day. There is no debating this fact.

Many a times we never realise the power we hold within ourselves. The power to make one happy. The power of influence on people, on our loved ones. The power they bestow you with. The power with which you are expected to care. Or sometimes it is just the power to irritate even. Power High indeed.

A simple nod, a gentle smile, a hug, sometimes just a shrug does it all.

A flower blooms. And it is the most beautiful of sights ever. I say, trust me on this one. Your heart is filled with such pure delight, that ....

It is almost like the House episode we saw a couple of days ago. The scene was an operation performed on a pregnant lady. Going by the general trend in the serial to show graphic details and my special affection blood and blood like red looking things, I would term the scene as 'gross'. Just when I was about to cringe, shove my head below the pillow and curse my 'shower', the baby's tiny little hand popped out from the mother's womb and reached out to hold House's hand. The scene was so cute that my mind got flushed and was filled with pristine thoughts. My heart was jumping, dancing wildly. I did not know why. A big smile ran across my face. My time froze for a while then.

This is the exact same thing I am talking about. I must say I am one of those few lucky people to see such gleam in one's eyes, in real life that too, and do not even realise that it could be you to make it happen.

And its always give and take in these forms of barter situations, I guess. But the difference in this trade is what you give adds up what you take. There is no subtraction in this world. Add on.

Mathematics is very simple. No need for Gujju expert opinions here. (no pun intended)

Follow the Day

Light and day
Is more than you'll say
Reach for the sun
And just follow the day.

Just follow the seasons,
We're never short of reasons,
Must find the right ride
and reach the bright side.

My feelings are more,
Than what I can let by
You can't see me fly
Just follow the day.

Minutes of silence

" Knowing you makes me realize, that i know a little more about myself now. "

" If we said all the things in our heads, the world would be a noisy place. "

Odomos

I hate bugs. I hate insects. I hate all creatures small and green and yet can fly. Damn them all. They give me a swollen eye. Sob. Sob.

Tralala...

You don't have a clue,
what it is like
to be next to you.

I'm here to tell you,
that it is good,
that it is true.

Words can't be that strong,
my heart is real,
Lets go drink beer.

Try, try to forget,
what's in the past,
tomorrow is here.

Love, orange sky above,
lighting your way
there's nothing to fear.

Not Today

Some days I feel like crying
Don’t matter if its rain or shine
I feel like my heart was broken
At least a million times

Some days I wake up dreaming
Feels like I never even woke
Answer life’s big question
As if it’s one big joke

Some days I feel like singing
I sit back and just hum the day away
Maybe I pick up a guitar and play
Whatever I want to play

Today I feel like laughing
Seems to be no reason at all
And if the world stops spinning
I’m not afraid to fall.

(Maybe it’s too soon to be sure but I really do believe that some day we’re gonna have it all.)
(just can't stop smiling)

All I want is You

All I want is you, will you come ride the tide?
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you always stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

News

A shooting star. A cold chill night. A new year. A new light. A new Hope. A new beginning. A new future. A new story.

A new template too.

I was waiting for so long
For a miracle to come
And the world thought I had it all
But I was waiting for you

I see a light in the sky
Oh, it's almost blinding me
I can't believe
I've been touched by an angel
Let the rain come down
Let it fill my soul and let me drown
Let it shatter the walls for a new, new sun
A new day has...come.

A new day has...come.

A break

Its been a while since I have last blogged. Precisely a month now. It feels as if I had been missing something. But I am back now. Yaaay!!

Lots to tell myself, lots to write.

I am back. :)

A break

Its been a while since I have last blogged. Precisely a month now. It feels as if I had been missing something. But I am back now. Yaaay!!